The Fear Of Change
The fear of change drives all sorts of behavior. From holding onto 'things' to fixating on thoughts, the fear of change requires the ability to locate and fixate. This is not an innate ability or 'talent' much desired by all, but a degradation of awareness into something which lessens the enjoyment of life. Enjoyment itself, embodies change and when that change is resisted, unhappiness ensues.
Holding on to a thought or thoughts which seem to give us pleasure, is not the real pleasure but a shadow form, showing us the possibility and ever keeping it out of reach. The pleasure of fixation is a pleasure for the analytical mind, for it is the one which requires 'no change' in which happiness abounds. For the individual itself, this mind limits and inhibits the unlimited. There are no bounds when it comes ourselves, other than that which we place upon it. 'No change' is the gray area where the spirit seems to interact with the mind and so takes it's charge, when in fact, neither of these things exist.
The analytical mind, by it's job's definition, requires the existence 'outside' of ourselves to become orderly and neat. Quantify and qualify is the order of the day. Change disrupts this job duty and becomes the target which must be surmounted. This is the reason that locationals and exteriorization drills work so well. They get the being out of the claws of the mind and presents an exterior view in which the being can place themselves. The being is not the mind, for without the being, what existence has the mind?
It doesn't matter how 'far' one is along the 'enlightenment' road, the mind continues it's game of 'no change'. Even though the progression of one's journey indicates 'growth' or that spiritual freedom is being gained, the mind remains in greater or lessor influence and many times vacillating between the two. If that is the case, what is it that frees us from our creations? What is it that helps us to break the cycle of remaining as we were.
The road to truth is not paved with 'figuring' every thing out. That is the road of the analytical mind. All that needs be done is to let go of the thinking process. You are not your thoughts, your ideas, or your mind. These 'things' create the entertainment so frequently seen in some circles of spiritual 'clearing'. They have nothing whatsoever to do with you. You are not in charge of them, it's creator (and therefor slave of) or even it's willing servant. All that you are, is a Free Being. Nothing else. No attachments, no 'outside' agreements, nothing.
As a Free Being you always have the choice of what it is that you will do with your Freedom. You can remain as you are, always, or you can 'change' into something else. And when that change is made into something else, the Fear of Change comes into existence. Becoming something else, we fear to be Ourselves. After all, now that we have 'become' something else, it is our wish to remain so. We made it that way when we 'changed our mind', didn't we? Once the mind has been created, we must ensure it's survival. Changing is not an option.
This is the reason you will see the faith in one's religion become tainted. For some, when the truth comes close, it becomes the time of backing off. Coming too close to the truth, we fight our way back to what we have come to 'know' best - the way we appear to be, right now.
The way you are right now has never changed and will never change. But right now, you have also deemed it necessary to pretend to 'be' something else. Hiding in our creations does not limit the revealing of ourselves.
Rare is the person who doesn't play the game of group agreement - "I'll accept your illusion, if you accept my illusion."
Fearing change is predicated on keeping up the illusion. The show must go on.
Isn't it about time that you ended your part in the show.